I've never really understood resolutions. I guess there's a part of me that hates setting myself up for failure. That being said, I'm not immune to the "what can I do better" pondering that comes with every new year's day. I usually spend the holidays ruminating about all the things I could (
and will) do better the next year... committing to exercise, scrapbooking once a week, reading the entire standard works, twice... Okay, maybe I set myself up for failure. But the more I think about it, this year I'm resolving to do something completely different. Something that has nothing to do with exercise, nada about scripture study, and nought to do with keeping my house clean. This year I resolve...
Several weeks ago I was doing what I do best, and interrupting one of my elementary special education classes. The students in that class are academically several grade levels behind their age level peers. They struggle to read, write, and do math. Several of them have several emotional issues that riddle their lives with anxiety and trauma at even the slightest mistake. But they are my favorite. They are eager to learn and to be friends. I'm not ashamed to boast that I am one of their favorite visitors to the classroom. On this specific occasion one of the students, Michelle, asked me to play concentration with her (with her favorite Dora cards). Soon another student, Jose, joined in. As we started to play the other students meandered over and asked to join in. Of course Michelle let them. I was a little worried though... Michelle loves to win and can (and will) get very upset when she doesn't get her way. She's adamant about rules as long as they are in her favor...but today she surprised me. In fact they all did.
The first card match went to Lamar. Michelle was a little bummed, sticking her bottom lip out, but then started clapping for Lamar. "Way to go," she said to him. The next match went to Jose when he matched two Dora's. "Dora's my favorite," Michelle said, "I'm glad you found Dora, Jose!" Samiyah was next to find a match; Lamar and Jose now joining in the jubilation at her success. With each match, the joy of success became louder as the "That was awesomes" and "Good jobs" came from each member of the game. Jose started giving out hints to where the hidden cards were...Michelle started jumping up and down anytime someone came close to picking up a known match...Lamar was clapping and whooping and hollering...The last match went to Michelle (her only match I might add) and high fives went around the circle.
As the game ended and the decibel level rose to one of a dull roar, I was quickly (and lovingly) told by their teacher that I was never allowed in the room for freetime again. But I think she saw it too; her class worked as a team in those few crazy minutes before lunch. They took turns and played by the rules. That in itself is not really that spectacular...most students have learned that by the time they're in school. But what I don't see in most classrooms is the spirit of team success. These few students were cheering on their classmates ruthlessly. When one got a match, it was as if they all had just turned over the winning card. When one chose the wrong one no harsh words were said. When the game was over there was no winner because they all had won.
So back to resolutions, commitments, goals... This year, I resolve to win. And I don't mean having the most matches, the most money, or the most dates. I resolve to win with the people I love, the students I work with, and the work I do. In essence, if it's good for the team, I resolve to do it. Happy New Year!